Things are changing

Well it has been a while. I have no idea what I have been doing; why I haven't blogged. I am so busy, but yet I am not. Oh wait! I did join facebook and am totally hooked. That is probably half of it. Just when I think about posting someone has posted on my wall or I have some crazy quiz to do. LOL

Jack likes his soccer but seems to be pushing the kids more than kicking the ball. He has been showing more agression lately towards things and I am not sure where it has come from. He has been watching a lot of Tom and Jerry and we wondered if it was that. So we took it away this week to see if there was a difference. That show is super funny to him but becuase they beat the crap out each other. Although, all it really has created is incesssive whining about wanting to watch Tom and Jerry. Why is my child such a whiner! OMG it is driving me nuts. I would think at 4.5 that he wouldn't whine so much. He has such a high pitch to his voice too. (insert my scream here)

One bit of news is that I am pretty sure we are dropping out of the China program. Referrals have not gotten any better. This month they only did 2 days. Last year at this time we thought about doing a domestic adoption and I just changed my mind thinking things had to get better in China. Well they are not. They are exactly the same. Bottom line is it has taken them this whole year to get thru 2.5 months of referrals. Since my LID is December and the are only on Feb..you do the math. My family cannot be on hold any longer. I talked with my social worker and she was going to get some info for us on maybe switching to the Korean program. She said we couldn't be at the top of the list, but we also wouldn't be put at the bottom. She is trying to find out where we would get put and how big the list is. Does this mean that we would have to wait another year or year and half??? The wait for a girl is longer than a wait for a boy in Korea. Since July 08 they have had 17 boy referrals and only 2 girl. I also called my adoption attorney that did our domestic adoption. She is still around and said let her know if we want to move forward. We may not do Korea and go domestic. I don't know what to do. My head is spinning. The one thing that I do know is that I still have to get my girl no matter what. I have been dreaming and planning for a girl and if that changed now it just wouldn't be right in my heart. Hopfully we can make a decision in the next week or so. Once I get my mind on something it makes me nuts until I have a decision.

I will try and be a better blogger this winter. The weather has already changed drastically here and I feel the winter blah creeping in.