Ten thoughts for Thursday (copied from Stacey)

1. I wish my husband was home more this week. He has been very busy and has missed dinners and nite nite time.

2. Jack fell asleep on a shopping cart the other day. He had woken up very early for him. When we were at the grocery store he started to get crabby..then rubbing my arm. Then he started to put his head on my arm. When I moved it to put the stuff on the belt he just fell asleep. I couldn't get him up. I got him all the way home to the couch and he slept for 2.5 hrs. I had to wake him up!

3. The leaves are starting to turn. I don't want winter to come, but I love fall.

4. I really need a vacation. My friends are leaving for Disney tomorrow. I am jealous. The closest we are going to get is a 2 night stay at an indoor water park after the first of the year. Why then? We are asking for the money at Chirstmas

5. My butt is getting bigger! Do you think it is the handfulls of M&M's I keep eating?

6. Going back to #5...I thought when J went to school I would come home and do a work out and shower and be on my way! I really want to read blogs and I have a lot of business work to do. So..so far...the butt isn't getting any better.

7. No news on the adoption front. Hmmm maybe I should call the attorney now......ok just did and got her voicemail

8. I need to dig out the halloween box from the basement. I don't really have many decorations. It is not my favorite holiday. I am trying to buy a few new things though. I don't do the spooky stuff!

9. We have no plans for the weekend. T will probably be at the warehouse most of it. FUN for me! NOT

10. Oh the best thing of the day. J's teacher said as she was putting him in the car..."you must have a smile on your face all day becuase he is the most enthusiastic child!" Well if that doesn't make you feel good! I think! She said it with a happy face.

Super Froggy!

I have always looked at these cute towels for kids. I can't tell you how many times I have wanted to get one. I finally bit the bullet and got one. So we were playing super froggy after our bath.

Yes I got him to cover his privates!

don da da da...super froggy to the rescue

here I come to save the day

I don't know what happened to these pics. I switched the camera over to "sport" since he was running and it got all grainy. Maybe you are suppose to be outside???

Then this one...isn't it just too sweet. This is my big froggy.

It reminds me of my little froggy. This was his 2nd halloween. He is about 18 months

Secret Pal Gift

I just wanted to post about my last secret pals gift. This swap is over. They are doing another round with new pals but I have decided not to do it because of the domestic adoption.

She sent me an outfit that could go on either sex since she knew we were doing a domestic also. A trick or treat bag, a bag of reeses (yum) two little halloween tattoos, a pumkin flashlight and The Moon lady book (chinese). I just love getting these! I am sad I am not doing the next one, but since there is a chance we won't do the China adoption then I wouldn't feel right.

I just wanted to post this one. Typical kid that can't just wait 2 min for you to take a pic. "I have to have it mom"

Why is it...

That when you get your house clean (no I don't clean my own house) it seems that your child does more things to create a mess that he would on a given day. Example....as we are drinking grape koolaid lets spin around the kitchen floor as fast as we can so that it sprays out of the straw on the floor in a nice big circle? Its not like koolaid isn't sticky or anything. Does he do this often...no...just today when I pay good money to get my house clean and would like to keep it that way for at least 12 hrs. As my one friend would say...cry me a river...you didn't clean it.

What is going on with me. Well my cold didn't last long...thank god! I was able to go out on Sat night. We had a fundraiser to go to for a neighborhood kid with leukemia. It was a great turnout. Sunday we just had birthday party at BIL/SIL. It was fine. The girls still had the girls night and had fun. :( Guess I'll have to plan another one!

Nothing from the attorney. I figured I would give her thru the weekend then give her a call early next week to see if there is any action.

I am in the process of messing with Jack schedule. It was....I would wake him by 8:30 if he wasn't up. Nap from 2-3:30..then I would wake him up again. Bed at 9ish..which usually turned into 9:30 which he would talk to 10 half the time. That is too late for school nights. I really kept the naps because he always acted like he needed one plus I have the business work to do. So this week I am trying "rest time" trying to see if he can just rest and not nap ( if he does sleep fine) then I can get him down earlier...in hopes that he will wake up earlier on his own in the morning. How is it going you ask? Well it is just all over the place and I have a cranky child. I really do think he still needs to nap. I will give it the week to see what happens. I am hoping I can switch his schedule to wake up at 7:30 (on his own) rest/nap time at 1:00 then get him to bed at 8. So...wish me luck....this cranky kid thing isn't fun!

Thank you for all of you who are posting comments. I love it. Sorry I am not the best writer.

Freedom!

Just dropped J off at school. Then a friend is picking him up and taking the boys to lunch. I have about 4 hours to myself!!! WOO HOOO! Ok so now what am I going to do? I was going to start working out this week. (don't choke on your laughter) But when T was home on Tues, that threw me off. Then I have been fighting this sore throat. Then last night I had some serious belly issues that are still lingering this morning. So not really feeling up to it. (yes, more excuses) When J gets home he will go down for a nap! More time! Then at 6:30 tonight I am going out with the girls. What a day for me!!! I need it.

Do you ever get so stressed out and just crabby that you know you need a good cry....but can't. I need the release right now, but just cant seem to get it out. I even watched that 9/11 Oprah show the other day...not a tear. What is my problem. Why would that not make me cry. I am just not a crier. What can I do to relive all this stress?

Edited at 5:41......Well shit! Now I think I have a cold. At 3:30 I got so stuffed up and then my nose started the running thing. Sneezing a ton. Feel like crap..cancelled tonight. I am not a happy camper.

I am not alone

So now my son goes to preschool. Yeah, 2 hours two times a week to do what I want....oh wait.... DH has "work from home day" on Tuesdays. He is here, in my house..go away. This is my time. I want to be alone in the peace and quiet to do what I want. You have a warehouse to go to...leave. Please!

Is that too mean? Too bad. Mommy needs her time!!!! Love you sweetie!

On another note. Today is 9/11. Thoughts and prayers to all those to lost and suffered.

Mom...please play trains with me

Seriously, I knew I would have to play with my son a lot, but how much trains do I really have to play. We have different kinds of trains to play with. We have the Geo Trax that take up my whole living room floor. Yes, it is a very pretty room. Then we have the train table (not a wooden thomas one, it is plastic by Step 2) It is made for car and trains. For some reason it is SO fun to push the trains around in a continuous circle over and over and over again. NOT All I get all day is "mom come play trains with me" I AM SO SICK OF TRAINS!!! When I try and offer other things to play I usually get a no. If I do get him to do something else it is usually something that he gives up on and gets mad. He talks about trains all day. For example...he asked me why the ceiling fan was slowing down. I said because I turned it off so it gets slower and slower. His response was "oh just like trains do when going up a tall mountian" Well yes they do! He finds more ways that everyday things are like trains. Who knew! I have started thinking about christmas and am having a hard time coming up with things to buy because all he does is play with trains. Any suggestions? LOL

The mind of a man

Ok I just had to post this. It is too funny!

Our car insurance renewal was 8/17. I got the new cards. I figure that my husband can put his own card in his own car. So I put it by his wallet about a week and half before 8/17. I reminded him a couple of times that he needed to put it in his car. ( note: I never said it was expired, but put it in your car) and there it sat...right by his wallet. A couple time I even put it on top of his wallet before work. Nope..he left it.

Fast forward to today. He needed to pick up a trailer he was renting to go to his motorcycle track day (don't ask) He has done this before and you would think remember he had to show proof of insurance. He had to go borrow his dads truck that has the hitch on it. Drive to the trailer place. They needed the insurance. He had to drive back to his parents (only 12 min away) only to find that the ins. card he has is expired. Who knew! So he calls me ..I am at Kohl's. " Is the insurance card on the counter?" as I giggle inside I say "yesss!" He said he thought it expired 9/17. I say nothing...just thinking...are you kidding me? Now it is also 2:50 and the place closes at 3:00. He has a 12 min drive to home and another 7 back to the place. I only recommended that he call and nicely ask that they wait a few min for him to return. Needless to say he got the trailer, but come on. I have had numerous talks with him that if I put something by his wallet it means that something needs to done with it.

Fast forward to 5 min ago. Now he needs to come home from his parents. He has Jack with him. He need to drive his dads truck with the trailer so he needs to put the car seat in there. Now we have had a child for 3.5 years. We have always had to use the clip thing for his car. Which, mr. engineer that he is, can't figure out how to use it. The last time we put the seat in his car I gave him step by step instructions with visuals. That was a while ago. We haven't had to take the seat out. He calls me up to say they are on their way. It took him 25 min to figure it out but he didn't have the clip on. I now his dads car is older and there is no way that his belts lock. So I told him he needed the clip. Where does it go he asks. OMG how do these men function on a daily basis without us to guide them. I just can't take the stupidity of them anymore. I have a hard time dealing with my 3yr old and my dog...him too? Come one!!!

What to do with the Baby Room

My friend Stacey has got me thinking about this now. I am stuck in limbo with this room. Here is a pic of how it was painted for J. It had moon and stars bedding but he trashed the bumper pads so I had to throw those out. I have to get new bedding no matter what.

Now we love the way it is painted and when we were planning for our little girl I had picked out this bedding from Pottery Barn because it was simple and the colors would go. My mom even bought it, but I just returned it since we don't know what sex we are having.

I love poka dots

Anyways....since we don't know how long it will take to get matched that is why I returned it. If however we get matched with a girl and they still have this I will order it up right away. What was nice with Pottery Barn is all the stuff is separate. I was just going to get the bumper pads. I was just going to get a pink dust ruffle at another store because I didn't like the one that came with this set. It was stripes. Then just buy the different color cotton sheets from BRU. However...if I have a boy then what the heck should I get. Now I have to look for that. I think that BRU has the same bedding we had for J

But that is a whole set and I really don't need it. Anways..it is not a bad delima just thought I would have a chat about it!

Then the big question will be if we will know the sex before the baby comes. Silly me for just going on and on! Ahh the mind of a woman.

The Portfolio is Complete (posted 8/30)

I went to my friends house today. She is a fellow adoptive mom. She had all this computer scrapbooking software so we could create the pages for my portfolio to show to birthmoms. It turned out really cute. If I can figure out how to post any pages I will. She just has to email it to me first. I will send it out to my attorney tomorrow.
So here we go! Now what? I sit and wait. I wonder how long this will take? I mean anything can happen. She could get a call next week with the right match. Or it could take a while. My friend, who happened to use my attorney for her 2nd adoption, said she thinks we will at least have a bmom by the end of the year. Holy crap! I go from waiting until 2009 for a baby (which is most likely 2010) to with in 6 months maybe sooner. This is just freaking me out. I do think of a newborn and that smell, the squishyness of him/her. Just how they are so fun to snuggle. Then the reality of having 2 kids settles in and it quickly goes away. The messy House. Two kids talking back to me. UGGH Jack can't even handle people talking to me. How is he going to handle a baby. I know they all get thru it. But he is so difficult.
I know I am just rattling. This is just what is coming out of my brain right now. I am excited too, but I am just a pessimist at heart!

Update

Ok so what I decided today is to continue on with one blog. I also had a Yahoo one but since the China adoption is so long doing a blog just for that didn't make sense. I want to be able to post about my new adoption as well. So here it is. I am going to be taking a few posts from my Yahoo blog and posting them here since they relate to current things. Please leave me comments if you are reading...I love them!

Referrals

Well I know I haven't updated in a while. A lot has been happening with us. I just wanted to update that referrals are in. They only referred 4 days this time. They are thru Nov. 25, 2005. Just so sad. This horrendous wait has made us decide to do a domestic adoption. Our princess may turn into a prince. I will probably keep this site to update my adoption but will most likely be changing the name of it. We are still keeping our China adoption open so this will be an update on both of them. Wish us luck!

So our portfolio has been sent to our attorney with the retainer money of course. So we are officially on our way. I can't believe I may have a newborn again. This is crazy. I was so over that and was looking forward to my 10 month old. Goodness, back to sleepless nights. The constant feeding. What have I gotten myself into! But with the wait for China getting longer and longer we just couldnt wait anymore. That precious china doll face will forever be embedded in my mind and I hope someday that some special girl will be mine (of course that means 3 kids which is a whole different story). For now we will just see where life takes us and what child we get blessed with.